Dear Saun

Dear Shaun I'm gone
as I ran down the staircase.
thinking hard about the lost time.
they say time wasted never returns.
but dear God if it's possible I want
mine back.
please let me have mine back.
I want it all back.
but it's all gone.
so dear Shaun I'm gone

they say I should be happy I've got a
story to tell.
but wbere do I start?
from the banging sounds when you hit
me? or from the evilness in your voice
when you remind me of my past deeds
making sure each and every inch of
the wound received the salt.
maybe I should start from the past
where you promised to kill me .
tell me where should I start?.
maybe i should tell them about the
scar on my upper lip or the way the
blood was pounding like a broken
water pipe.
how you laughed and told me i deserve
the scar.

I know you deserve heĺĺ but I wish you
go to heaven maybe for a day or two
so your angels would meet mine
but that's not my call to make.
unlike Brandy these scars I've got ain't
part of who I am.
I refuse to be a victim
I made new friends now. TD jaķes,
Anthony Hamilton John legend the list
is endless.
this is me now, I am happy now.
no fear, no tear, no pain..
I no longer have that walk of shame.
nothing ever stays the same.
I drag my suitcase with pride .
I made it out of the lion's den alive.
and this time it's forever.
it's now or never.
oh the breath of fresh air.
the sound of birds mimicking sweet
melodies.
this is the new chapter
SO DEAR SHAUN I'M GONE!

{Written by Simnikiwe Vena Courtesy of TT Writings 31 August 2015}